Wow, a week between journals, I must've been busy. This week has been too hot, too hot for summer and definitely too hot for May, bloody 28 degrees or something. Despite this I have been out nearly everyday (this weird thing happened, my skin got darker, that's never happened before), monday and tuesday we had job interviews, we figured that as there's a lot of greenhouses round here it'd be sensible to try and get some of that sweet greenhouse employment, the pay is good 'cause you'd have to be mad to get up at 6:30 and stand in a greenhouse for the next 6 hours in heat like this, fortunately we're mad, unfortunately so is just about everyone currently leaving eastern Europe. Anway, got another interview next week, with some head honcho from a biiiiiig nation-wide company who just happens to be passing through our little town and asked if we wanted to meet him, odd as the company's website said they were particularly looking for people with an education in plant-type things, oh well, if he offered they must be interested right? Also, hopefully it'll be all about the planting, potting, seeds and shizz end rather than picking end which' means not working under glass.


Anyway, on the subject of greenhouses. We went to the zoo yesterday, despite the fact that it's the middle of the school holidays, a saturday and the kind of weather that brings bloody awful people swarming outside, it was surprisingly quiet.

I like Rotterdam zoo, it's big and pretty and there's a lot of 'look this is what this animal is hunted for, see how big its skull is, feel it's coat' stuff. Had a moment of absolute (but totally irrational) terror when we spotted a tiger strolling back in to her indoor-sy area and we skipped in to have a closer look only for her to stare at us through the glass with an expression which on the face of any cat or dog means 'you have two seconds before I pounce'. Ok so there's a sheet of god-knows how many inches thick glass between us, but my blood ran cold. Doesn't help that this is the same zoo where Bokito the silverback escaped last year.

Ah gorillas, I like gorillas, I like zoos too and I understand the conservation work they do, somehow I don't like the combination though, can't stand seeing gorillas in zoos. They're too human, I always feel like I'm mocking them when I see them sitting in their enclosures. It's an incredibly uncomfortable situation for me. Anway, Bokito was sitting outside in the grass which made it slightly better, and a little one was sitting next to him clapping which I guess means he's at least happy. Chimps I have no problem with, they always look lke they're having fun. But with gorillas they have this expression which says 'we could get out of here, we could twist the head off every single one of you before you had your cameras out, but we won't, we're peaceful and despite what you do to us we're not going to retaliate.

Went to the bird show which flew straight over my head (see what I did there, damn I'm funny), but no, it really did as obviously it was in Dutch which although I can understand a fair bit of I'm a long way from following a presentation about birds in.

Anyway, the greenhouse link. Went to see the butterflies, made coming back outside feel like opening a freezer door, nice.

Sealions, possibly my favourite animals, seals can fuck off, club 'em see if I care, sealions are like a cross between dolphins and dogs, who could ask for more than that? The ones that weren't doing an uncanny impression of my dog by laying on their backs in the sun were swimming upside down and made the water look really inviting, I totally understand every nutter who gets dragged out of a watery enclosure after jumping in. Made me miss the Sealife Centre in Brighton, not that they have sealions (how cool would that be?) but because everytime I'm there I have an urge to hop over the railing in to the shark/turtle pool and go knock on the top of the tunnel at the tourists inside


Anway, rant time. Trying to find stock photos, shoes specifically, go to resources-stock-model-female-all female and search for shoes, aaaargh, I can't even see your feet, how did you think 'shoes' was an appropriate tag you fuckwit. It's reasons like this that painting takes so long, all I want is a pair of converse-y lowtops on feet on legs hanging over the arm of a chair, I'd settle for any kind of shoes dangling, I just need the right angle. Also model-female-portrait search 'rofile'..... that's not even a portrait, what were you thinking?


I joined another art site, I'm now whoring myself on....four, plus ocassionally putting my work on facebook and myspace, I need a job. More than that I need a thunderstorm, I should never have to wake up this hot.

Once again, my mood icon: ignore the word, that's clearly someone wiping sweat from their brow.